Hey Sammy. I for one am so glad to hear you are not alone right now. Your friend is truly a great friend – the best way to reward her is to simply do the best that you can. One step at a time. She’s clearly there to support you all the way, as are we.  Everyone takes their own time to accept truths they don’t want to hear. Some never do. You will get there but don’t expect much more of yourself than simply surviving for now. Eat as best as you can. Get outside when it’s safe to do so and go for a walk. All the little things help.  Take care and stay in touch.