Dear Matthew:

Earlier stated confidently that you “never felt genuinely respected or loved”, but in your recent post you wrote: “I forgot to mention that .. one of them genuinely loved me, accepted me and appreciated me for what I was”- any idea how you forgot such a significant experience as being loved?

One more question: do you think that your perception that you belong only with your family and the rest of the people where you live (and in the city where you moved to, for some time before you returned home) are generally on the other side, hostile and dangerous, do you think this perception is based only on the fact that you were a slim boy who wore glasses, or were you also taught by your parents, in some ways, that the world outside home is hostile and dangerous and the only place you can feel safe is at home?

Do think thoroughly before you answer, take your time.

anita