Thank you both.

I am in deep distress and being conscious is torture right now. I don’t know where to put myself. I wish I had someone in my life to help me along the way. I wish I could talk to my family but every conversation has to be neutral and they don’t understand despair or circumstances.

I don’t even feel capable of contributing anything via writing or drawing.

I don’t know what to do.

If only I had that one lifeline growing up. I would have made better decisions.

I couldn’t make proper decisions because I never had control over anything.

I am sorry, I can not feel better.