<p style=”text-align: center;”>Thank you Anita, my Thanksgiving was nice. Hope you had a Happy Thanksgiving as well.</p>
Thank you so much for the poem. It was just what I needed to read just now.

I am sorry about the long intervals between my post.

I am sitting here when I should be trying to go to sleep. I watched a video about being a highly sensitive person and days ago something about being unable to do anything but I forget what it was really called. I begrudgingly go to work because I absolutely have to. I do other things because I really have to but I for the most part sit still or lie down not being able to do the things I should be doing. I am easily overwhelmed by so many things and when I am I can’t move. I chip away at what I need to do but it’s very difficult for me to complete tasks and I constantly worry about how I do things, am I doing the right things, am I making a mistake, this is all too much for me and I have to go lie down.

Of course politics is certainly not helping me. I tried a 5 minute meditation today which helped a little but I still complained to someone about the things that bother me.
<p style=”text-align: right;”>I wish I could feel strong and confident. I wish I did not let others affect how I feel so much. I wish I could end suffering. I wish I could be proactive but I am sitting here….no closer to going to bed…unable to move because I feel overwhelmed by everything.</p>

Thank you Anita for the lists of things to do. I really appreciate your help.
<p style=”text-align: left;”>I wish I could respond to what you said afterwards, but I can not.</p>
 

Hi! Just checking in. Thought about deleting this thread but started to glance through it with many thoughts. I had to stop reading what I wrote because it was upsetting me. I hope everyone here is well.

Lisa

Love is an illusion.

The wish for money is disguised as love. The need for friendship is disguised as love. Marriage is for money and status and security, not love.

Love is an illusion and so are get togethers in the name of “peace and love.”

Real Love is rare and does not harm another.

Dear Anita,

Thank you. I love that passage you shared. Always have.

Thank you for also sharing the sentence before it. It is very interesting.

Lisa

Thank you Anita! I am sorry for taking so long to respond since November. I am just seeing your Christmas wish as well. Thank you. I hope your holidays were lovely.

I just wanted to respond.

There is not much I can say right now. I would just be saying the same things I have said before.

I hope you are well.

I will try to post more often.

Lisa

I understand that Anita is no longer in the forum. I am quite sad to hear this but wish her well and if she can read this, I would like to thank her for the years of support she has given me through some very tough moments. I am in awe of someone who can give that much and hope to someday be strong enough to do so for others.

Thank you,

Lisa

Peter,

Thank you for responding. Success for me now would simply consist of peace. I have lived my life as a server and observer, not thinking I am here to live. I came to that conclusion from repeated experiences.

It’s interesting what you said about a power game with me kinda using getting people to like me as me exerting power.

I believe I have practiced AUM in yoga class. I do not tune into it on a regular basis but find it interesting.

Thank you,

Lisa