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April 9, 2023 at 6:07 pm #417138
I understand that Anita is no longer in the forum. I am quite sad to hear this but wish her well and if she can read this, I would like to thank her for the years of support she has given me through some very tough moments. I am in awe of someone who can give that much and hope to someday be strong enough to do so for others.
LisaApril 9, 2023 at 6:01 pm #417137
I will check out the YouTube channel you mentioned. Thank you so much!
LisaApril 9, 2023 at 5:59 pm #417136
Thank you for responding. Success for me now would simply consist of peace. I have lived my life as a server and observer, not thinking I am here to live. I came to that conclusion from repeated experiences.
It’s interesting what you said about a power game with me kinda using getting people to like me as me exerting power.
I believe I have practiced AUM in yoga class. I do not tune into it on a regular basis but find it interesting.
LisaApril 9, 2023 at 5:46 pm #417135
[quote quote=417098]Dear Lisa, I haven’t been on the forums when you first started writing, but got some understanding of your story by reading anita’s summary earlier on this thread. I am sorry you’ve been through all that trauma and that it is still affecting you, making you live in the survival mode.
I will never be successful if the people around me do not want to see success.
It seems you’re hoping that people would help you, but the kind of people you’re expecting help from aren’t really good and safe people? Perhaps you need to stop hoping to get anything from them, and start believing that you can make it without them? And instead of them, surround yourself with good, supportive people? Which are out there, no doubt about that. You have been through a lot as a child and experienced more than one Adverse Childhood Experience (ACE). That’s why you are probably suffering from Complex PTSD (C-PTSD), like many children who have been emotionally abused or neglected (I suffered from it too). I was thinking if perhaps you would benefit from support programs offered at places such as the CPTSD Foundation (cptsd foundation dot org), where there are programs like Daily recovery support calls, Daily encouraging mails, Healing book club etc – all for survivors of childhood trauma. There is a small fee to pay for those programs, but maybe you can browse through the website, read some articles and see if you want to learn more about C-PTSD and recovery. Of course, there are numerous other resources on the net about C-PTSD. Let me know if it is something that interests you, and I can give you some more pointers…[/quote]
Thank you for your response and for taking the time to look back into my thread for Anita’s summary. Thank you for your insight and for suggesting the CPTSD website. I will definitely look into it.
LisaApril 9, 2023 at 5:40 pm #417134
[quote quote=417090]Dear Lisa I am sorry that you had such a bad start to your life. Until we become adults we are at the whims and fancies of the adults who make up our immediate surroundings and this impacts on our adulthood unless we take conscious steps to rectify the mistakes that our carers made (Romanian Orphanage Scandal).As adults we can explore what buddhists call the 8 worldly concerns and their antidotes that help relieve our suffering. As we relieve our suffering using wisdom, compassion & skillful means it naturally expands out into the world in general.[/quote]
Thank you for responding to my post. I looked up an article on the 8 worldly concerns and need to read a bit more. Thank you for bringing it to my attention because I do not remember hearing about the 8 worldly concerns in Buddhism. It sounds like something I would really like to explore.
Thank you again,
LisaApril 5, 2023 at 2:19 pm #417080
It doesn’t matter how hard I work. It doesn’t matter how much I care. It doesn’t matter how much time I devote to something. I will never be successful if the people around me do not want to see success.January 31, 2023 at 9:00 am #414792
Nothing to report except more of the same. People whose only goals in life are the same as reptiles…crushing the hopes and dreams of people who can see beyond the physical. What is going on in politics today in the U.S. is a metaphor for this. Republicans see what they want to see, believe what they want to believe and don’t care whom it hurts. They make dreamers out to be the villains while they are free to break rules, oppress, ban, and spread lies about others.January 26, 2023 at 2:12 pm #414492
Hi Anita! Thank you for checking in on me several times last year and thank you for wishing me a Merry Christmas. I hope your holidays were very nice.
I am sorry for not getting back to you but I did not check in so I did not see your posts till now.
I should go back to read what I last posted in April I think? I want to post more. How are you doing?
LisaApril 2, 2022 at 2:33 pm #396711
Wow, Anita, thank you for going to the trouble to look back at my posts.I really appreciate it. Thank you also for staying with me on this forum. There are some things that have improved and other things that have become worse like my physical problems. I will post in more depth in the near future, I promise.
LisaApril 1, 2022 at 6:06 am #396660
Glad to hear you are fine. To answer your questions, I continue to try and please people for my own survival. I have given up on them liking me.
In my life I have wanted to be around numerous people but you know the rest…
Sorry to just be getting back to you.
LisaFebruary 20, 2022 at 4:28 am #393199
Just checking in…I see it’s been awhile since I posted. How are you?
LisaMay 7, 2021 at 8:34 am #379341
I want to take some time readjusting my habits and will not be posting for more than a few weeks on social media.
I read what you posted and I am going to find that third group you spoke of the old fashioned way. I want to find that third group.
Thank you again for all the help you provided for me and your endless empathy. Look forward to communicating with you again sometime in July.April 19, 2021 at 7:46 pm #378128
Anita I have read your entries and thank you so much for going over my posts. That had to be time consuming and I really appreciate it. I will get back to you on what I am thinking but not just yet. Thank you so much.
April 19, 2021 at 4:09 am #378035
- This reply was modified 2 years, 1 month ago by Lisa.
Anita, I am sorry that I have not responded. I did not see your posts till now. I will respond later today or tomorrow.January 27, 2021 at 7:33 pm #373603
I have tried to make people like me by being of some service to them. Never saying no. People who think of themselves first are loved and wanted and nothing I do makes me a valuable person to other people. The smart thing for a person like me is to be rich enough to not have to be around people. I want to be around people. They do not want to be around me. Selfish people are revered. Some people have no money but are happy because they have people who want to be around them. Some people who are not wanted become very rich which at least protects them from having to go out and be rejected. I am one of those people that do not have either one. I can’t complain because it irritates people. I can’t have either one of the things I mentioned above. I don’t know what to do.