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December 18, 2018 at 10:13 am #269845
I had a longer post Anita but I do not feel like posting it now.
It could be my hormones but I am overcome with fear right now. My biggest fear is being shown that I am not as important as others. Some think simply acknowledging the feelings of others who are not in thier bubble is a grand effort that they can’t imagine doing.
I keep “not posting” everything I want to say.
There is a lot of emotion tied into what I feel are my philosophical observations that it often comes out distorted and rambling.
Will try to post again soon.December 18, 2018 at 10:42 am #269857AnonymousGuest
I know you are afraid a lot, often. And I know how badly it feels. Only an hour ago or so, I was afraid myself. I destroyed a crock pot, you know, one of those pots that will crack and break if used as a regular pot, placed on a hot stove? Well I forgot it was a crock pot and that it happened before that I destroyed a crock pot in the same way and I did it again this morning.
I was distraught. A bit too caffeinated right before, a bit distressed and the crock pot… before I knew it I was distraught, more intensely than I have been for a long time.
I took a hot bath, I washed dishes so to have the kitchen organized, make me feel better. I tested the crock pot, it is broken. A loss of I don’t know… 30 dollars or so.
Well, here I am sharing with you my fear today. Feeling somewhat better at the moment, but tired, exhausted. You know how exhausting fear is.
I do hope you feel better soon.
anitaDecember 24, 2018 at 9:16 am #270753AnonymousGuest
M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S, L I S A ! ! !
anitaDecember 27, 2018 at 11:10 am #271161
Thank you! Merry Christmas!
I am sorry I have not seen your message until now.
LisaDecember 27, 2018 at 1:00 pm #271165AnonymousGuest
Not a problem. Soon it will be a new year, I do wish you a better 2019 than any year before it. Don’t worry if you miss this post before Jan 1-
Happy New Year, Lisa!
anitaJanuary 1, 2019 at 6:48 am #271819
Happy New Year!! I would like to take your advice Anita and start a new thread. I think I have said all I can say in this thread about my insecurities, frustration, jealousy, hurt….I am just going around in circles. I would like to make a more positive tone thread. I do not think I have concurred my negative feelings but I am having the opposite effect happen to me than what happens to other women. As I am getting older I am actually finding my moods easier to manage while other women are having mood swings I had 40 years of what they will experience for a couple now. PMDD helped ruin my happiness when I was younger. I became a different person and then my rational self was left to deal with the results. I hope I at least helped people suffering from this to recognize how one sounds when they are experiencing PMDD.
I want to start with what is going on right now and talk about and being more proactive in reaching my goals. I am very optimistic right now but I have not come up with a name for my thread. I will think about it today. It will be optimistic. I am very commited when I name something I am writing to try and stay with it. Will be back later.
Thank you Anita and everyone who helped me with your advice and kind words.
January 1, 2019 at 6:54 am #271823AnonymousGuest
- This reply was modified 4 years, 11 months ago by Lisa.
Seems like this thread is coming to an end: May 1, 2017- January 1, 2019, eight months. Thank you for starting this thread and I am looking forward to your second thread. A new year, a new beginning, is the aim, isn’t it. A new year really is a new beginning.
And you are welcome, a pleasure to read from you, to have you here!