Inky, thank you for your reply. Some of my friends who knew us both said something similar, but I still do miss him.

Anita, yes, this coworker is also his lover. We did not had a face to face conversation. He proposed this the day after (and said we could meet anytime if I would want beacause there were a lot of things to say) he texted me to break up but I refused, as I was really crushed. A day after, I texted him to ask him if this was still possible, but he said no because he set something in his mind. (I don’t know why and what it was). Then the Covid 19 came and this was not possible anyway.

We talked a bit via text message, he just that the therapist made him see how unsuitable we were and that she knew he would do that. He also said to me, I don’t know why, that he drank for 3 weeks after the break up (“not because he is alcoholic-I don’t think I called him that-but because it was something I would not let him do”), that he was with some 10 years older woman and than he moved and started a relationship with this coworker, that he was happy, and I should be happy for him, and not dramatic.