Hello!

I hope this message finds you well and healthy. The discussion here really helped me to put some things in a better perspective. I try to keep the wound sealed inside, but I still find myself really missing him, wondering if he is doing fine, wanting to reach out to him somehow. I do feel like I grief the loss of this relationship and also him, as a friend. I would sometimes think I should tell him I am sorry for the things I done wrong and if I hurt him during our relationship. I do know, however, that I should not contact him, as I am sure he doesn’t feel the same way.

Right now I believe I tend to develop codependent relationships, which was not what either of us needed to be healthy. I might also perceive the reality in a distorted manner, I found myself many times struggling to ignore some red flags, in order not to lose a person, a relationship, or the idea I had about this. If anyone has any advice about how to manage these thoughts and emotions I would be very grateful to hear/read. Thank you!