Dear Lisa:

“I was a good child and so many things worked against me”- it is true.

“The same people who abandoned me and tore away at my self esteem, rolled their eyes at me, betrayed me.. all stand up and do not believe they should be held accountable”- it is true to your teenage mother and father (whom you never met) and your uncles (whom you thought were your much older siblings). They were not held accountable for abandoning you, neglecting you and mistreating you.

“I needed help a long time ago and they let me sink”- true.

“I cry and cry and can not control or change my past”- I understand. The past cannot be changed.

“You tolerated me Anita because you do not know me. You  do not have to work with me or be in the same room with me”- well, there were people on these forums whom I did not tolerate and ended my communication with them. You are not one of them. If I had been in the same room with you, I think I would have liked you.

“When I’m upset, no one comes to me. When I’m calm no one comes to me, when appear happy no one comes to me. No one told me that I was not going to be loved by most”- I am sorry, Lisa. I am so sorry.

anita