I agree with you and understand what you are saying. I hope he feels much better this time and heals and is less confused now that I am not in the picture. I never meant to get in between him or his life and I mentioned this to him several times. I apologized for my actions and took the blame — because it was really my fault. I can get angry and demand a lot and my confused/hurt/sadness is all masked through anger which turns into animosity.

After you mentioned that to me in a previous post, I have come to a realization that I give a lot of hostility towards people I am close too.. I am trying to figure out how I can solve that and gain inner peace and happiness but that will take some time.

I was mainly showing you his responses just so you can help me articulate what he is feeling. I didn’t share all of my responses because I thought it wasn’t important. So yes I will leave him alone, yesterday was complete no contact and I will move forward with that. If anything changes, I will update you.

Thank you for reading all my posts and helping me understand his side… I knew I had a problem with understanding him but thanks to you, I have an idea and slowly starting to accept this situation. I really appreciate your thorough responses. Thank you again, I hope to give you a more detailed and happy update soon