Dear Lannawannabe,

Thank you very much for your words, I could quite relate to your similar experience and it made me feel less awkward. Like I wasn’t that weird after all, but instead being exposed to some selfish behaviour from a man that isn’t that interested in me. Because the way you describe your guy is so similar to my thoughts about mine.

While I was offline those last few days,  he visited me and it was a little challenging emotionally. When he asked if he could drop by, I was either going to cut him off then or let him visit so that I could experience and see it in real life instead of dreaming and idealising him. I thought about it for a while and chose the second one. Risky,  but thinking that it might lessen my obsessions + I could have some fun. He stayed with me for 2 days and and somethings were surprisingly unexpected and some other were difficult. Like him arguing that I was very demanding sexually and controlling-fastidious in life. I had heard that from my exboyfriend too. So now I have some thinking to do regardless of this artsy fuckboi

He just left and I am not sure what to make of it yet. But I can see clearly now that, even if he wanted to have a relationship with me, I don’t see it that possible now.  We are different and we have conflicts in basic things.

I don’t think so, but if I go all obsessed and panicky again, I’ll post a wall of text again for Anita’s tireless eyes 🙂

Thank you again,

Love