Dear blkhwkdwn1:

I wonder why I thought she had a grandchild.. I figured she was a very young grandmother.. hmmm, I made a mistake then. Yes, I know you were scared back then, you were so sure that you were not worthy of her. That saddens me because you were and are worthy of her. It’s just that you believed so strongly that you were not. What we believe is very powerful. I too missed many opportunities in life because I believed I was not worthy, not a valuable  person. I believed I was inferior to others- a very painful way to live. But fast forward, I now know that I was wrong, believing that about myself.

You can change what you believe too, and being in your thirties, you will be way ahead of the game compared to me, age wise. If she becomes single again, you can tell her then that you are not as scared anymore, that you want to try and be her partner.

Can you imagine doing that???

anita