Hello Wanderlustkitten,

I am picking up from your post that you don’t feel as if you have any control over your life.  Some of this stems from the situation we are all in with regard to this blessed Coronavirus.  Also, you are scared of death and you don’t think there is any point to doing anything.  The first thing you need to do is to change your self talk.

The point to life is love.  Love glorious love.  Beginning, middle and end.  You love to write.  This may sound very obvious but you have to write it before you can share it.  You want to inspire people, create change in others and touch them in some way.  What is stopping you?  The only person that can stop you from doing this is yourself.  Who cares if you make it as a writer?  You do.  Who cares if you make it as a waitress, shop assistant, ticket collector?  This is not the point.  You have been given your own unique mix of talents, character traits, preferences and so on.  You are here to make the most of what has been bestowed upon you as a birthright.  By the way, you are not necessarily going to know if you have touched or inspired someone.  You are not going to meet with every person that reads your work.

Have you ever heard that if you change your thoughts, you change your life.  This is true.  You need to think far more positively than your post suggests you have been doing.  As long as you keep replaying your problems, you will not be able to find the solutions to those problems.  Deal with one thing at once.  If noise keeps you awake at night, invest in some earplugs.  If you are stressed, play relaxation music particularly at bedtime.  You can find plenty online which is free.  Pay particular attention to your breathing ensuring that you breathe into the base of your lungs.  Guided relaxation may help you with this.

Use writing as your therapy.  Write about this situation that you are in.  Paint the picture with your words.  Your creativity center exists just below your navel.  Breathe the color orange into that point.  Revitalize yourself.

Finally, learn to live in the NOW and stop worrying about what might happen when you are dead.  You will take with you all that you have achieved on Earth.  Your spirit will survive.  Death is just another state of change.  Live your life with courage, strength and power and achieve your inspirational dream.

I hope you read this and that it helps you take life in both hands and live it to the full.

Wishing you the best of everything.

Peggy