Hi thank you for your reply, he said he wants to try and help himself first, meditating, eating well, exercising and not drinking alcohol. He seems much happier since he talked about it and said it’s a weight has been lifted. I said I think therapy would help him especially dealing with abuse from his childhood and he is quite keen on therapy but wants to try to do things to help himself first.

I feel very confused about how I feel, because at night when I can’t sleep I think and ruminate about what these “bad” thoughts he talked about are. Are they about harming me, are they horrible unspeakable things that none of us would want to think?! And what do they mean? I feel so alone