Dear rose of yellow

Thank you for your reply,

“She is telling you with honesty that she is not interested in you“ = she just confessed to me that time that she has feelings for me, i even asked her twice.

She has feelings for me now but not more than that… isnt this mutual for us? She cant be in a relationship now because her parents forbid, and also she’s not sure of her future as she could be move to that city (of her uni) if she finds a good job there but she isnt sure too…

She also told this when confessing her feelings for me, that she dreamt of me, when she listen to sad music it reminds her of me, she also keep pictures of me that she took by screenshot on my instagram story… if she didnt confess like this i’d have it easier… but she said this… and it’s like giving me hope…. as i never had a girl who has feelings for me before and i always thought that she is worth it that’s why i want to wait for her…

When i ask when u are ready later on, and i suddenly come to you again… will you accept me or reject… she cant answer it and she said i shouldnt try to guess her feelings in the future… like if she wanted me to forget about her she could’ve said she’ll reject right?

And also when i asked her “if u have feelings for me, dont you feel sad for saying this?”…. she wont answer

This is what gives me hope and i dont know if its a false hope or not, and she said we are only friends now. She said we can still contact each other but not daily texts.
Honestly i wanna wait for her in the future, but i keep getting afraid of her meeting and getting to know new people in uni…. as i cant stop that from happening.