Alice, you write very poignantly. Loneliness can be very isolating. You wrote that others call you high maintenance and I wonder what your definition of this term would be? The lack of human connection has depleted you. What do you think makes it hard to make friends? Like you, I am a deep thinker and most people can not relate. They want sound bites and slogans where I want depth and honest respectful discussion down to the bones of the issue. I am also displeased with how hateful people have gotten to others in the USA, lack of respect and kindness is endemic as is blaming. So it’s hard sometimes for me to find good friends. Can you relate to this, or does high maintenance mean something else? To me it means someone who takes and doesn’t give, who needs constant attention and validation or praise. Who calls all the time to just drone on and one without caring what is happening to the other person in their life. If your deep nature is the issue, look into indigo children and indigo adults. Maybe a path of reading books from the public library to teach yourself new things, history, philosophy, etc. Join a book club or discussion group (on zoom). Perhaps you’d be happier doing more giving, like serving at the food bank or animal shelter to help get out of the constant thinking. If you’d like to respond to any of the things I have mentioned or Anita has mentioned, please do.