Hi Anita,

My therapist is awesome.  He tells it like it is, and is very forthcoming in “this is what I see should happen”.   I know some therapists want you to figure it out on your own, but he’s not that way.  He listens, asks questions, wants to know how I feel about something, then much discussion.  If I say, “What should I do? I just don’t know.”  He offers the advice that I need.  He knows me well enough to give the answer specific to me.

Yesterday on the way to Dunkin Donuts with my daughter, seeing all the decorated houses for Christmas made me mention “I’m not ready for the holidays.  I just can’t get into it.”  Her response was “You shouldn’t let one person ruin the entire rest of your year.”  She said it not in a soothing way, but in a “get over it mom” way.  That really upset me.  I’ve spent 5 Christmas’s with my “bf” and this year is not my normal.  I thought she would have more empathy, but she did not.  Hence, my disappointment in possibly not seeing my son tonight.

I’m going to try my best to enjoy the day tomorrow.

Katie

This morning I felt stronger, but as the day wore on I’m kinda getting down.  My son has a manuscript he’s working on so he may not come over until tomorrow morning. No big deal, I just was really looking forward to seeing him tonight.