Hi there, i am so thankful that i came to see this post. Am aware that this is a year back, but i need to let you know that you have helped me a ton. Your situation is exactly mine, and i identified as a bisexual too. Sometimes it makes it harder because i just started realising my sexuality and this jealousy issue just seems to be interplaying with my sexuality in complexities.

I went on to read up about more perspective that can help me shift my beliefs. and if you’re still finding your way on this journey, please do give this a read. It helps me so much.

https://medium.com/@kathleeakers/female-jealousy-and-the-prettiest-girl-in-the-room-syndrome-b5d0d1a56c29

now i am just internalising this new belief, a newer, freer belief that:

Being the prettiest girl is not an accomplishment. Being the prettiest is completely subjective, is insignificant and self-defeating. And being the prettiest does not f-ing matter.
Because we are all more than that.

And i honour your journey. All of it. The part where we needed to be the prettiest, the part where we realised we aren’t helping ourselves, the part where we feel shameful of this desire, the part where we feel like burdening our partners, the part where we dont know how to deal with it all. Everything. I know what you’re going thru (or have gone thru), and you’re still very courageous, resilient and beautiful inside out. you’re not alone.