Anita,

My wife and I had a discussion of arrangements yesterday. We talked about finances, kids schedules, living arrangements and so on.

She told me Monday that she wasn’t sad about her decision to move forth with the separation. However she started to cry during our talk yesterday were we discussed our living arrangement until our lease is up and that we would both go our seperate ways when its over. Obviously we would still have to talk and be a part of each other’s life’s for the kids.

Seeing her cry when talking about living separately and the end goal to be a divorce made me think that she does care. That she doesn’t want to do this but that she needs to in order to move forward and begin her healing process.

I desperately hope for a chance at reconciliation but I’m fearful that there isn’t and I don’t know if I should continue to hope for that.

I’ve been thinking about the talk her and I had and my conclusion is that living together may be a bad idea. It’s going to slow both of our healing processes. I dont want to accidentally find out that she started dating someone new or something else that means that she’s gone forever because it’ll feel like my heart is being crushed again.

Please know that I dont blame her at all for my broken heart. I understand why she’s doing this but it doesn’t make this any easier.