Thank you Anita.

I believe it to be true also. The problem is I don’t know how to break free. To get what I want… because I am afraid of losing the little bit of crumbs that I have. I admit that if I had greater self esteem and more of a positive outlook I could overcome this easier. I’ve learned many things during this relationship. One of them being self love. I honestly don’t know where it begins. I am trying to be more conscious of my thoughts. I can see why I am so doubtful of WHO I Am or WHAT I can be. Again much from childhood where My mother told me that I was unattractive and that I wouldn’t amount to much at all. I’m trying to believe that I am worthy but it’s so unbelievably hard.

I’m trying to break free from unhappiness. I really am. It’s so damn hard. I know it starts with me. I remember I once had a friend that said to me, “ snap out of it! The love that’s in fairytales and romance doesn’t exist. I know that’s what you want, but it isn’t realistic.”