Hi Peter,

Thank you for your reply.  It means a lot to me.  I have already read it a couple of times and read it to my partner.  The quotes you provided are quite profound.

I have told my dad and my partner that I feel embarrassed by how I am feeling and handling my uncertainty.  The quote you provided from the Life of Pi helped put my thoughts of embarrassment in perspective.

Yesterday I began re-reading a book called Embracing Uncertainty by Susan Jeffers.  It seemed to help a little with the uncertainty I am feeling.  Last night was another rough night.  I seem to only be able to sleep for a couple hours at a time and when I wake up my heart is racing, and I begin ruminating.  However, last night I tried to do something each time I woke up and could not immediately fall back asleep, such as listening to some guided sleep meditations and reading a little bit of Embracing Uncertainty.  This morning I forced myself to get dressed and I went outside in freezing temps for about a 30 minute walk.  I was quite emotional on the walk and almost cried.  At least I am trying to do stuff to help or at least hopefully help lessen my rumination on and struggles with uncertainty.

Thank you again for your supportive words.

Richard