Dear noname:

When I quoted to you from Wikipedia about Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT), I knew that I was not introducing a new topic to you. I  know that you are a professional psychotherapist in the U.S., and I am sure that you spent many, many hours studying and practicing DBT in the classroom and with patients.  The reason I quoted to you about DBT is because (a) there may be someone else reading my posts and it may help them to know, and (b) because there are different levels of understanding of a topic: if you re-read something with “a beginner’s mind”= with a new light, you can see things you didn’t see before.

“I am curious if talking with me feels hopeless to you? It’s starting to feel that way to me. It doesn’t seem Like I’ve made any progress and it’s really getting old”-

– no, talking with you does not feel hopeless to me. After all, I was diagnosed myself with BPD, I suffered decades of miserable, very short term .. what do you call them, instant-ships (just came up with the term), and now I am much healthier.. finally I feel sane, what a relief! Well, same is possible for you.

Because you are a psychotherapist and familiar with the skills you need to practice, all you have to do is practice these skills persistently and for long enough. What you are lacking is the motivation, I understand this part.

anita