Dear Nichole:

I am so happy to read from you today, your post made my day!

Regarding your dilemma, the remote position: “This is what I wanted.. I was thrilled to find a remote position.. being creative.. I could really express myself. There is a lot of structure there.. which I love because not really any guessing on what is happening”.

The local position: “7 dollars more”.

My recommendation: take the remote position. The point that the local position means more money reminds me that you made decisions in the past based on spending less money on rent, but those decisions cost you a whole lot more money than what you saved. Therefore, I say: take the job that is better suited to you, the job that is likely to promote your mental health, instead of straining and challenging it. Having a job with structure and not having to guess is a huge benefit for anyone suffering from anxiety.

“I function.. my bills are paid. I am showered. My clothes are cleaned. I am fed. I am attending Church… I will go on a walk today. So I keep wondering why my feelings won’t align.. But I guess this is my new beginning“-

– when you go to church tomorrow, before the sermon, open to the first page of the bible, Genesis, it starts with “In the beginning..” (In Hebrew, in-the-beginning is one word and it sounds like this: be-re-sheet)

Give yourself A Beginning tomorrow, Sunday morning, say Be-re-sheet, and open yourself to a new beginning. Imagine that it is possible for you (and it is!) to feel good, and to feel good for a whole hour and a whole day.

anita