Dear Kilian,

I relate to your question and your desperation too. I am not a traditional Christian but I deeply believe in Jesus and have faith in God. My experience is that sometimes it’s us who contribute to our disease, and once the imbalance in our body & soul is healed, we’re healed from the disease too. But sometimes it feels it’s just unfair, be it an innocent child who gets severely sick, or an accident that leaves the person paralyzed, or even a chronic pain that limits us to enjoy life (such as in my case).

I do keep my faith, talk to Jesus on a regular basis, but it’s hard. I still haven’t exhausted all options for healing (it’s my knee), I just need to be patient till the pandemic is over and I can go safely to doctors again. But the whole situation is very frustrating and I am not sure what the lesson is behind it, except to make me suffer. Job (from the Bible) suffered a lot, but never lost his faith, even after everything was taken away from him. So he would be a role model, but it’s hard…

What is the nature of the disease and suffering that you’re facing, if you’d like to share a bit more?