Without replying to each item individually, here is what I have to say:

I am trying to learn to radically accept myself, who I am, my current situation in life, etc. I am trying and that is the honest truth. I am trying to work hard on things that need to be worked on and I don’t punish myself if I eat more over a few days or if a I skip a day of looking for a new job or studying. I am going with the flow and trying to enjoy life as it is, with all the good, had, and neutral things in life. I am using stoicism and buddhism to be a better person. It helps greatly. The problem? I am lost. I am beyond lost. I don’t know what to do next. I work in IT, but I want to leave it. I don’t know what else to do to make decent money so I am continuing to study IT because that’s my ticket to a better tomorrow. I hate it, but no other path has been revealed to me. I am hoping to meet someone and have a family again. It’s been a while since I’ve had a relationship. I am trying to rebuild my finances after my divorce and bankruptcy. I am doing what I can, but I feel lost. I am sorry to sound so negative, but the last few days have been really sad. I am not at all depressed or even sad. I am in a great mood and trying to be active as much as possible. In fact we hiked 7 tough miles today and did about 20000 steps. I eat healthy and see my friends… But I am lost. I have no sense of direction. People say, do what makes you happy. Riding my bike and hiking and reading and podcasts make me happy. Driving to nature makes me happy. Those things won’t make me money. I live in the real world with rent, bills, loans, etc. I am just lost. I hope this too shall pas.