Hi Danny, thanks for the reply, I am trying I really am, it’s so hard to be positive at the moment as I feel a great deal of sadness especially the last week, I have implemented all of those measures to continue the healing process, I no longer have her number, we’re not friends on fb and I haven’t contacted her and really don’t feel the need to but that doesnt help with wanting her in my life and knowing that she is moving on with dating other people.

Of course I want a more level relationship with getting as much as I’m putting in, it was more than physical intimacy for me as I really connected with similar interests and same kind of humour etc., felt really close as in sharing a lot deep feelings and speaking everyday, i just had a deep feeling of wanting to be there for this person regardless of what’s happened.

At the moment I just feel as though I won’t recover from this fully ever but then I haven’t been in this situation previously, I’m guessing my body and mind will adapt after a period of time and I won’t even notice, at the moment I’m not enjoying any activity I used to, my mood is irregular around my friends and family, I don’t even enjoy eating any type of food at the moment. All I can do is stick to my routine and try keep as busy as I can and in time I will think about it all less and less and get to a better place in myself.

Also we’ve had that talk before but it doesn’t stop her from reconnecting with me, anyway 8 know that it only goes one way from here and it will never stop until I let go so this how I’m trying to be instill this in my mind, I just cannot keep feeling like this anymore, I’ve accepted I can’t just shut the feelings off so it is just a case of working on myself and looking to the future and the possibilities, I believe in the fact this is temporary and things will get better.

Also thank you nbc for your comment, I am not ashamed to be a sensitive person and wear my heart on my sleeve but also be a strong minded person who believes in my own morals, thanks for reading and responding, I will get through this to a better place!