Dear Emily:

In the past, when I felt motivated to make a positive change, as in: from now on I will do this and that to make my life better, I really thought that from now on I will do what it takes and it will work out. But it never worked out: something happened to terribly discourage me, and I sank again into depression that lasted a long time. After that long time, something would happen, and I felt alive again, hopeful, making a decision that from now on I will do this and that and from now on, life will be better.. only to fail again when something bad happened.

anita