I’m sorry to keep you from your work! My job has periods where I get a lot of down time so able to post, only downside is lots of periods where my thoughts run wild.

It will still hurt me to see her on move on with someone else because for a long time I’ve really wanted to be that person, I accepted everything that the relationship would of been in terms of how I would get due to her children and time but I was fine with those conditions and wanted to help her in anyway I could, but yeah her actively looking to talk and connect with other people and not even being bothered by telling me that is the final straw and is making me want to move on finally, I cant keep being her blanket when things don’t work out for her, I have been making excuses for far too long why she exhibits the behaviour she does and there is not many people who would have tolerated it for this long but I will keep reading that passage back because you are right!

It will be the same for me, she will undoubtedly move on first and I won’t meddle, hopefully I’m not exposed to it for a long time although we live quite close so always a chance I will see her out.

It’s a great outlook, I would also feel guilt when hurting others as I know full well what it feels like and is the worst feeling in the world.

I know in time my mind will rule over my heart and I will take her off the pedestal, I could write a whole page of flaws, I suppose when you at this stage of a breakup you wonder if anyone will make you feel the same way you did about that particular person.