Dear @anita :

thank you so much for making me understand all this and of course I’ve kept my education and my career 1st priority from the beginning…

as about Sid, yes, that’s what I needed to hear cuz somewhere in my mind, I felt he wasn’t that attached to me that much or maybe took me for granted whereas for me, I gave him much more importance than he did.. I got connected emotionally and missed him and when I told him this (even in the same city) he was like “yeah what can we do let’s hope to meet someday”

*and yeah I remember, we met twice for a short period of time.

and maybe It’s because the fact that his parents didn’t wanted him in a relationship before college, but then, yeah mine too didn’t but I still chose him because I knew I wasn’t letting it affect my studies.. at the same time he knew it too (he’s great in studies too) but I guess he didn’t really took that much risk for me as much as I did. I agree he’s not good for future but who knows…

as about Jake, I don’t know much about him as a date/bf and I’m yet to discover.. and as u said, yes he might be a better candidate.. exploring is better than making a wrong choice. I just wanna see how things work out with him.

Kitty