Thank you Sammy, I know the timing of it! It was gonna happen sooner or later, I’m an over thinker so I would rather know than not, as I said it will help but just feels raw at the moment, it’s highlighting everything that was wrong for me anyway, the spark was well and truly gone, we was never suited well for long term, I just got attached to someone who would never be in for the long haul when in the beginning I wasn’t, it’s all a learning curve, I don’t regret anything because of where I am now to where I was at the beginning.

I know from your experiences drink isn’t the answer and I promise you I’m not doing it for that reason it is to purely socialise, I would rather be around people than be at home alone right now, I will feel terrible tomorrow but it is what it is!

There’s no defeat with my personal plan, it doesn’t change anything for me, sure it hurts but that’s life, to be honest I’m not bitter about it, if it makes her happy then I accept that because I would never want to hold anyone hostage for my own happiness, my time will come.

I’m concentrating on where I am now to where I was at the start and the growth is exponential so it can only get better and what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, right? Lol

I hope you have a nice easter with you family, its so refreshing for people I’ve no physical connection with to be sympathetic and I promise you it helps me, so kudos for that, I was thinking earlier when I get to your stage it will nice to past the experiences and advice down to someone else on this thread who may need help in the way I do because we have all experienced a really hard situation, it can be really tough out there and this is on par with therapy for me so thank you