Hi Anita,

I see and indeed that actually makes sens. What I don’t understand then is that in this configuration he would actually see me as an equivalent of partner/maternal figure instead of a partner/friend? I know his mother, we don’t have much in common I think, would it be possible that in me he kind of seeks what lack in her?

I went through depressive phases which led me to go to hospital due to suicide attempts, however I was not diagnosed MDD since it never lasted longer than 1 or 2 month and hasn’t occurred for the last 5 years. I know the big lines of depression, I know how it feels when it comes up. But I have no idea how on a longterm basis, people react, how they love.  I don’t want to justify all his behaviors such as ghosting me for days and weeks with the depression. I am at this point where it becomes hard for me to see the line, I try to understand better how a depressed person works.

I know he’s battling hard to get better, he does his best and yet, I feel like I carry all the relationship by myself while I would need his love and support as well. I don’t know if somedays he gets better how long it will last. I want to build a future with him and I know he also does. I am extremely confused and sad, kinda angry as well and guilty for feeling angry.

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