Dear Murtaza:

“when it comes to understanding myself and my situation, I am better at judging and advising”- I wonder why you addressed the following question to.. the normies in this site who are way less qualified to judge and advise you: “wouldn’t be a mercy if I just ended my life?” (the title of your thread).

“one thing that I feel superior to norimes, is not caring about having my basic needs met, not needing anyone or anything, even needs themselves, I actually re defined needs, for me needs is something you can’t live without, and by can’t I mean death, not misery, not basic desires”- I don’t know if being okay with being miserable is a superior attitude, even if you were okay with being miserable. Clearly you are not okay with being miserable (much evidence to this, including the title of your thread).

I wrote to you that it is wrong to treat others as inferior to you, referring to your treatment of Peter. Your response: “really?” My answer: yes, really!

“Tell that to society, that has been treating me as inferior my whole life”- I am telling anyone who is reading my words: please do not treat anyone as inferior (or superior) to you in human value. Treat others respectfully, please!!!

“wrong you say?”- yes, wrong I say.

“by what standard, who said it’s wrong?”- I say it’s wrong, and the standard is my interest in decent human behavior that will hopefully make the world a better place for all of us.

I wrote to you that it is wrong to treat people as inferior to you, particularly people who are reaching out to help you, if only just a bit. Your response: “their help hurts me, every time”. My comment: better than that you stop asking for help.

“people will say the same .. boring.. thing ‘a permanent solution to a temporary problem’.. you too stupid to realize that some problems are permanent”-

– regarding the saying that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem- this is indeed an all-or-nothing-thinking statement (truth is more complex: death is permanent, but many problems are also permanent), but to correct this sentence and make it true in all its complexity, a paragraph or a page will need to be written. A desperate person considering suicide does not have the time and patience to read or listen to a whole paragraph or page. Therefore, a  catchy (easy to remember, quick to say) saying such as this is practical, true-enough, and it helped lots and lots of people who were glad to have endured a difficult time.

“from the little interaction I had with (Peter), and knowing me, he is in fact superior to me”- why is it necessary for one to be Inferior or Superior? How about Equal???

“I see people as a resource”- a resource of normie sayings that cause you pain?

“I never wanna change, I prefer death, its either my way, or no way”- this is your all-or-nothing-thinking, change some things, not every thing!

“the here and now me.. can’t be hurt”- an untrue statement, evidence to the contrary in your threads is massive.

I stated your “Nothing Matters” attitude, you wrote: “apathy is my greatest virtue”- apathy means a lack of emotions. The Murtaza I  know failed in his pursuit of apathy: he feels too much!

“my life have enough proofs to the superiority of fantasy”- mine too, but in between the fantasies, (and because of the fantasies), reality looks worse than what it is: the fantasies pick you up and when a fantasy is over, you fall a long way.

(The sentence I wrote just above is a generality, it does not include all the complexities involved, but then.. I don’t want to expand on it and make it much longer and distract from the point I am making).

“death is the next logical step”- death will happen soon enough, Murtaza: it’s nature’s way, it is not a matter of logic. (Again, I  know there is more complexity to the topic such as self- determining the timing of death, but I don’t want to distract from my point).

I wrote to you: “free will exists. I have proof”. You wrote: ” not to me” and you added a laughing face emoji. Your addition of the emoji was an act of free will.

You defined a normies this way: “people that can’t understand me, that can’t accept (that) some people are doomed, some people like me, and the best option for these people is to spear them away, I just want to hear it, this truth, from someone like you… I wish.. that I will be loved.. but we both know that this isn’t gonna happen, there is a part of me, still hopes.. tell me the truth”-

– the truth is that I feel love for you. Adding complexity to this statement: it is a feeling that I didn’t want to feel for the longest time, irl (outside of my own fantasy). Didn’t care for it, it hurt too much to feel it. Unless you, Murtaza, become aggressive toward me, I will never withdraw from your thread. If the website disappears somehow, before it does- I will give you my email so that we can continue to communicate, for as long as you want to.

anita