Dear Murtaza:

I just came back from the taproom- very hot. I think that this weekend is the hottest weekend ever in the history of this area, a result of global warming. I am sitting in front of the computer at almost 7 pm and sweating terribly. It is very uncomfortable but I can still focus on writing to you.

“if you ask me to stop, I would do it right in this post”- no, I will never try to stop communicating with you (unless you became aggressive, just like I told you before). When I used he word love in regard to you- there is a promise in that word, the promise is that love stays, it is not here one day and gone the next.

“did knowing me make a difference in your life?”- yes.  “Did knowing anyone in your life made that effect?”- in the context of these forums- no. “I.. don’t expect a miracle to happen, the facts didn’t change when I knew you, and I don’t think they will ever change”-I suppose part of me still wished that I could make a change in your life- silly, really. Definitely silly.

I wrote to you: “your intention was never to consider my thoughts and suggestions”, and you answered: “I wish it didn’t was this way..  I won’t lie to say that I did consider any, the only thing that I benefited.. when I’m lonely I talk to you in my head, create imaginary conversations, and that I have proof of someone loves (me)”- that’s better than considering my thoughts then.

“I actually don’t think a lot about climate change..  if that happened it would be a worldwide problem, we will have it first of course, the middle east, the funny thing is that USA done 60% of the damage, and we take the consequences, then they come to Iraq to steal oil, fake the 9/11.. they don’t consider the thousands of people that died in Iraq.. their silly army with their mental health problems, we must sympathize, I’m very sure that I have more mental health issues then anyone that went to Iraq”-

– “if it happened”- climate change has been happening for a long, long time and it is escalating fast. I agree with much of what you wrote, not with the “their silly army” part- soldiers, many join the military because they don’t have a better choice to  make money, or because they want to please their parents who also went to the army.. or because they feel patriotic, believing that they are doing the right thing.. and so many get severely injured and dying because of the choices made by greedy, selfish, short sighted, corrupt politicians. Don’t disregard the human value of each and every person.

It is after 5 am your time, I wish it was 5 am here, then it would be cool!

anita