Hi Jalen,

I am sorry to hear of the passing of your father, as well as your other struggles you are dealing with.  As someone who has struggled most of my life with mental illness, I would like to be able to provide you with a magical solution that would instantly make things better.  Unfortunately, from my experience, it is an ongoing process, with victories and setbacks, victories and setbacks.  I believe you saying “All I lm focusing on now is healing myself and being a better person” is evidence that you have taken a HUGE step to feeling better.  It is not an easy step to take, but you are taking it.  Give yourself credit.  Give yourself credit for sharing your feelings here.  That took bravery.  Give yourself credit for recognizing areas you want to change.  You are taking action, which is HUGE.

I hope you continue to focus on yourself and on healing.  Go at your own pace.  You will get there.

Richard