Dear miyoid:

I will write more tomorrow morning (in about 11 hours rom now), but for now, I read some of your previous posts and I can’t think of any more of a mismatch between you (suffering from separation anxiety) and him (suffering from symptoms of borderline personality disorder, something you brought up, not something I brought up). His unstable, quickly shifting hot/ cold behaviors toward you, and him seeking other women, is very bad for your mental health. You need a stable boyfriend, someone you can count on, someone you can trust to be the same from moment to moment, day to day.

I am worried about how much more harm you will suffer since it seems like you are unable/ too scared to separate from him. The entropy you mentioned in your original post of this thread, the movement toward mental disorder and chaos- this has increased because you are in a relationship with a man as acutely unstable as him.

It seems like you are simply unable to get him/ let him be out of his life.. no matter what he does, just as you were never able to separate/ break up with any man before him, no matter what they did, how they used you and whatnot.

I hope to read more from you before I return to your thread (it is now almost 5:30 am your time, which may mean that you just went to bed after being up all night..?)

anita