Hi Anita,

“maybe he is a good person who feels too much guilt and suffers a lot.”

I’m not sure what to think about that. He has openly told me about his trauma and suffering, and he would share as much as he wanted about his feelings with me and I really appreciated that. To me, I think he was a genuinely good person even though he had lots of trouble being considerate. With his loved ones he was selfless and kind.

He did admit to me that he does feel remorse for the things he’s said and done to me, that I can believe because of his physical behaviour, it seemed genuine.

Right now, I don’t think of him as a good person.

I have a lot of empathy and love for this person and I understand where his behaviour and actions come from. But I couldn’t tolerate it anymore because I was aware it was hurting me so much. This is why I have a false sense of hope for him that I would like to get rid of. I understand where he comes from and I hope he could go back to being the best version of himself. But unfortunately, this hope is holding me back from living my life and I am bothered by the thoughts I get of him finally realizing what he is doing.