I have spoke with a therapist and they believe if I have to admit I have a problem then maybe they need to look at themselves as having a problem. Which a family and friends + spouse have drug and drinking problems. Far more then I but I’m pointing fingers.

I think you’re right, maybe, I do need to look further into this because I use to be a fun person when I drank.

I just dont want to do this to myself anymore. Who I become when i drink is NOT who I am. I feel that’s why others are so forgiving of me after this slip ups because they cannot believe how out of control of myself i am. I am embarrassed and ashamed and want help!