Hi TeaK,

Thank you for those words. It’s been really hard to believe that it wasn’t all my fault and that I’m not too much. It was so heartbreaking because I genuinely thought that I was asking for too much and I should just learn to be less sensitive and emotional. It’s really hard because for most of the relationship and friendship that happened after the breakup, none of my needs were being met and I genuinely thought I was the crazy one because he didn’t think he was doing anything wrong. I don’t think he was doing anything wrong (besides the disrespect haha) because I just wasn’t getting my needs met and it’s just heartbreaking when it’s someone you love and it’s strange because I was getting all my needs met at the very beginning of our friendship/relationship and suddenly, I’m not anymore. Things changed and it really hurt me.

I didn’t realize how hurt he also was because of our relationship until he told me about it and it finally hit me that we had been both hurting each other without realizing even though we loved each other very much.

I don’t understand why I still love him to this day and care for him. I don’t even know if he feels the same way, even if he doesn’t it never changes the fact that I still care and love him.

All I really want is to move on with my life and keep the good memories locked away in my heart, it’s really difficult and right now I’m not sure what to do.