Dear Emily:

Welcome back to your thread, more than 4 months since you last posted. I understand you being stressed, and unable to relieve your stress by smoking weed. The landlord does not allow his tenants to smoke weed, and I suppose he has the legal right to do so. But you can relieve some of your stress in other ways, like a hot bath.. or a cold shower (depending on the temperature), soft music… maybe listen to a guided meditation to calm down, yoga, etc.

And you can vent here anytime! And please: be kind to yourself for being an “adult that doesn’t have it all together yet”- you had a very difficult childhood, you have a very difficult life: it’s not fair that you expect yourself to have it all together. Besides, hardly anyone (and maybe no one) has it all together!

One day at a time, one hour at a time. Calm down best you can, take a few deep breaths once in a while. How is your child doing?

anita