Dear TeaK,

Thank you once again for ur reply.

Besides exercising, i even start to play games now… i used to play games only because i dont wanna get left out from my friends, but right now i start playing games for myself recently (i play alone)… and i enjoyed it…

I really enjoy being alone now 🙂

Tbh the separation with that girl changed me a lot… i can see things in a bigger picture now but i became less social… i hope this is a positive path for me.

“Of course it’s a bonus if the guy has a well-paying job, but that’s not the only criterion. What I wanted to say is that you shouldn’t try to impress those kind of girls for whom money and status is one of the main criteria for choosing a partner.”

= Yes i get what u mean, i’m trying to find girls who accept me of who i am… but i hope that i also will find a girl whom i’m attracted too, I hope that i dont have to force myself to like someone only because that person is willing to accept me for who i am…

But i still believe money & status increase someone’s chances in finding one….
Especially looks, this is a crucial one… as humans are visual creatures and they are easily attracted by appearance…

Even me myself who is “not good looking” still prefers to be with someone whom i labelled as good looking (my type).

After reading some of my previous threads, and i wanna re-discuss a little about this part…

“A while ago you asked me about some instagram posts that you felt embarrassed about. I told you that if you’ve mislead people into believing that you’ve been working hard on a housing project, while you haven’t, you can feel regret about it (a healthy regret), realize it was a wrong thing to do, but also forgive yourself and move on. Beating yourself up forever for having made that post would be an unhealthy and destructive form of regret”

= The embarrassment isnt only about the housing project… there’s also a post of myself in which at that time i know it’ll embarrass me but i still shared it on social media because i know it’ll attract that “girl” attention… and i remember i posted that kind of pic not only once, but a few times…. It’s not about me beating myself up, it’s just that i feel i’ve done something irreversible in which most people (who followed me on social media) i know have seen it… I just hope girls who saw all of my previous posts wont regard me as a “freak” 🙂

i know it seems like i’m talking about me overthinking again… but i dont dwell that much anymore regarding that matter in my head… i just feel like i wanna convince my head fully of that situation. Just like the housing project posts i’ve stopped thinking about it totally…

Do u think the situation is still the same (after that re-explaining i did)… that i should just let it go, forgive myself and stop finding ways to solve that situation? 🙂