Dear Luna,

good to hear from you again! I think it was a good decision you broke up with him. As it turns out, he too agreed and saw it as inevitable.

It’s understandable that you’re now feeling “distressed and confused”. It’s a new situation for you, and you are quite sensitive and in need of a lot of support. He was that support for you in the beginning, and I think that’s why you feel he was “the only safe ground you had”. You’re now on your own, and need to be your own support, and/or find other resources, such as therapy.

 I feel like a glass full of cracks. I was cracked by a lot of bullets, but I will not break. it’s painful.

It’s good you feel resilient enough to continue without breaking. But you’d need to deal with your childhood wounds and childhood trauma, because that’s what caused those bullet wounds and cracks in your system. That’s what causes you pain. You’d need to heal, slowly but surely, in order to be able to live a happy and fulfilling life.

I ask myself why I have to add a new kind of pain to my pains. So far, I have endured a lot and gone through many problems. It amazes me how I managed to do this.

You are a strong woman, Luna. You can take a lot, but it hurts. As I said, now is the time to start healing those wounds. In Japan, they have an art of gluing back together broken pottery with gold (it’s called kintsugi), because they believe that our scars is what makes us beautiful. It’s what makes us stronger, more authentic, more of who we are. Perhaps you can look at your healing process as the art of gluing your broken pieces with gold, and then standing beautiful and strong.

How does that sound to you?