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What is it they say during a break up… Its not you is me..
This might not be ‘you’ as much as the communication means. This new communication technology, still in its infancy is something we don’t fully understand yet. We are I think becoming more dependent on ‘smart’ technology to act as our memory and decrement and this is impacting how we communicate and make decision. In a way the ‘smart tech’ is becoming a new kind of consciousness – Id, ego, superego, ‘self’… The internet consciousness in its infancy is at the Id level – reactionary, fight or flight… There is very little ‘self’ awareness within the inter-net and its very easy to get caught up in it.
Something about being in a virtual realty that brings out our Id, our shadow and projections. That said being aware of that we can use such interactions as ways to examine our shadow and projections and pull them back. Kind of like what your doing asking the question – Am I this online persona, is that the ‘real’ me?
I did a two-week experiment where I commented on current news stories of a major news network. Within a week I found myself getting aggressive, angry, frustrated… I discovered I really wanted my opinions to matter and change the minds of others. It occurred to me that everyone wanted the same thing. In such a space it is no wonder that any news comment section deteriorates in to negativity so quickly.
Overall, I found the engagement toxic, not because people didn’t agree with me or like what I said but because the negativity started to impact my engagement with the nonvirtual world. I could see myself becoming the grumpy old man that can’t see anything positive in anything or anyone.
Why did I think/need my opinions mattered so much they had to change others? Why did I feel the need to communicate and engage with people I would never meet? Why did I need validation from people I would never meet?
I suspect most of online interactions I’m talking to myself. Someone says something that resonates with me and I attempt to understand my own thoughts by responding. Which is why I responded to your post.