Dear Jisoo,

you’re welcome.

Going back to unhappy memories is disturbing.

Yes it is, and you don’t have to do it right now, specially not alone. It’s better to do it in a safe environment, with a therapist your trust.

i unconsciously poured in lot of stuff over here.

I actually prodded you to go deeper, asked you about your childhood… I hope you aren’t overly disturbed about that. If you are, you can decide to stop thinking about those past events until you are in safe therapeutic environment. You can say to yourself: I realize there is pain there and work to be done, but I don’t want the past memories to prevent me in my everyday life and functioning. So I am putting those away till I can attend therapy. You can sort of put those memories in a “safe container”, and then open the container only when you are ready to address it. That is – if you feel you’re getting overwhelmed by the past and it’s too much to handle.