Dear MKnox,

you are welcome.

I don’t have a therapist. I cannot afford a quality one right now and the wrong one can worsen my condition.

Perhaps there is a support group for victims of narcissistic abuse that you can attend for free (or even online)? You said you’re suffering from PTSD symptoms and that your life is a mess. That’s why it would be important to have some psychological support. It’s good though that you have trusted friends, who were with you in your hardest moments.