Dear Linarra:

I went through your recent post superficially, not reading all,  because it is now later in the day and although I slept better last night, I am too tired now to handle the emotional intensity of our communication. I will read, re-read and reply further Mon morning, which is in about 17 hours.

But for now, I smiled as I read this: “I do value our connection a lot, so it would take a lot to break it but if there’s more pressure than my mind can bear without breaking I will have to slow down..”-

– I smiled because I am relieved that like me, you too feel strongly about our connection. I feel very good (!) about our connection and communication, it’s the best. I also smiled because I appreciate your sensibility regarding the pressure factor. What I expressed to you earlier were my strong emotions, but there was no intent or desire to pressure you, my emotions are as they are, no manipulative intent driving my emotions.

“I wouldn’t feel great to lose it over feeling I’m too broken to meet your expectation and to succeed in my healing either“- your healing is and must be your own  individual process, not something meant to meet my expectations. Your healing process has to be your own, about you and not about me: you decide why, what, where, when and how.. whenever you are able to decide these things. Besides, I don’t think I expect anything from you in regard to your healing process. I hope, realistically hope.. but no, no expectations.

Be back to you tomorrow!

anita