Dear sossi:

“I can’t believe that this is how life is supposed to be, working till your head spins“- there is a benefit to the head spinning on work issues: having the head still, you get to feel the spinning that was always there, before you ever had a job.

“You know the feeling, like you are running through a tunnel of people hitting you either side. It’s too much“- if you stopped running from others in your current work life.. if you stood still, no longer running, no longer spinning.. something inside you will be running/ spinning, something from long ago, before you had this job and before you lived in this unwelcoming country, I think.

“I’ve no idea if I did something in a former life, born under a dark star or just plain unlucky but these things tend to follow me more than most I think” – born to a figuratively dark set of parents, like we discussed.. indeed, just plain unlucky.. and it expanded from there to your current life-circumstances?

anita