Hi Anita,

Below is the first exchange we had had after over 2 months. I am trying to give you a clear picture of where am coming from. seeing this is heartbreaking, but it’s not the type of heartbreak that is immobilizing anymore.

From: Elizabeth

To: Christopher

Subject: Get a clue

You are a joke.

My hope is that you’ll finally forgive me that you’ll let go of the hurt that I’ve caused you even as we go on being total strangers.

It’s not me that has to forgive you. Staying angry at you would be wasting more time on you than I already have.  It’s you that has to forgive yourself for being a despicable human being.

You are selfish and arrogant and everything that comes out of your mouth is nothing but meaningless wordplay. I honestly believe you don’t know how to be genuine.  People like you make the world very unpleasant for a lot of people. You can keep playing your games. ‘” Everyone likes me, everyone thinks am nice” I know better. But then again I honestly believe you don’t even know how to be honest with yourself.

Everything is about you, Christopher.  Whatever makes you feel good about yourself, you do.

It’s all about the impressions and being liked.  I feel sorry for you.  People like you never get to know who they are…

And now that the high of showing Elizabeth what you are made of is done, you are trying to find absolution from the same place you burnt down so that you can ease your mind so that you can feel better about yourself. Despite everything that you have done you are truly selfish to the very end. You still want to take Christopher. All you do is take.  You don’t know how to give. You truly are a taker.  You take, take and take more. Now you want my forgiveness so that you ease your mind. Still taking… you are like a Grim Reaper.  Christopher, I don’t owe you any absolution, I don’t owe you any forgiveness. There is none here for you.

Even when you ask for forgiveness, it has nothing to do with me.  I know for a fact you are doing this because you don’t like how you feel about yourself (still selfish).  I am certain you are not sorry. Anyone who is capable of cutting someone who is already down and broken is not a human being that is capable of genuine remorse.  I am so sick of people like you thinking that you can do whatever you want and then backtrack with a weak apology. You keep playing games because you don’t know how to be genuine and sincere.  This is all you know, play games and make meaningless apologies. I am neither impressed nor moved by you or your antics.

I don’t need your apology, Christopher. Keep it.  I am doing just fine without it.

Find your absolution somewhere else

“that you’ll let go of the hurt that I’ve caused you” Why on earth would I hold on to any anger towards you? Anger is reserved for people who deserve absolution. You don’t.

From: Christopher
To: Elizabeth
Subject: RE: Get a clue.

If I don’t, no one else will. You know I’m full of it so why would I cut it now?

Work well you special ones.

From: Elizabeth
To: Christopher
Subject: RE: Get a clue.

You give yourself too much credit. You are not that SPECIAL. Please cut the BS

Regards,

Elizabeth 

From: Christopher
To: Elizabeth
Subject: RE: Get a clue.

Elizabeth,

It’s ok, I understand you. It’s ok for you not to talk to me again and I know well now not to greet you again.

My hope is that you’ll finally forgive me that you’ll let go of the hurt that i’ve caused you even as we go on being total strangers.

Regards,

Christopher

P.S. I did not have to reply but I chose to.

From: Elizabeth
To: Christopher
Subject: Get a clue.

Christopher,

I am not one to say things without thinking.  I always try to be thoughtful with my words even when dealing with people I don’t particularly care for.

That being said I have this to say to you.  And it’s my earnest and most sincere hope that this is the VERY last time I will have to communicate with you in any manner.

Please stop greeting me.  I am not interested in your greeting. I don’t want it. I don’t need it.

I categorically have no wish, desire, need nor want to know how you are doing and vice versa.  It’s not my business and I just don’t care.

I know you have issues with people thinking negatively about you. At this point, it’s not my business to keep your persona in a positive light.

Leave me out of it. Deal with it whichever way you please just leave me out of it.

I don’t want any part of it.

Nonchalantly,

Elizabeth.

P.S. No reply required.