Anita,

I met Christopher yesterday. I feel like lately everything that’s been happening has been pushing me in his direction. I don’t want to assume anything, but I feel like nature is trying to offer me an opportunity to really get him out of my system.

When I saw him, I didn’t feel uncomfortable or hurt like I usually do. I felt nostalgic and sad all at the same time. So I walked off without looking at him or even saying hey. I can feel his vibe though. Discomfort.  It’s kinda sad acknowledging the end of this relationship that I had invested in so much of my emotion. when I look back I see just how unhealthy it was.

I am just happy now that I don’t wish him to drop dead.  It’s something I did think of at some point.  I was in so much pain that I had all sorts of absurd thoughts. April this year I thought I would be able to reach this stage. Were I would see him and be ok. I am somehow grateful that whatever happened did. It pushed me into learning more about myself and where I want to head from this point.

Regards,

Elizabeth