Everything you have said it’s right. And I have analyzed the same things and led to same conclusions.

I feel panicky a lot to be honest. I know rationally that these relationship are draining me and are toxic. But I still feel the need to be loved from these person and still looking for validation from them. I am anxious a lot and I am trying to cope with rejection and feeling alone. I really don’t know how will I handle it but I know that it’s the right thing to do.

Anyways I am doing a Inner Child Challenge on Instagram with a girl named @elevatedbyem, she is doing these short daily videos and asks quiestion to write in your diary like :

What was your dream job as a child? Can you include elements from that passion into daily life?

or

What was your biggest friendship break up in the past? Relationship with your parents in the past? etc.