Hi,

A couple of months later, Nov 11, I was surprised to read that you suffered from “being bullied by my entire family.. everyone took joy out of bashing me“, because your “entire” family, and “everyone” include your younger sister. I was surprised to read that you “always felt more comfortable among strangers than my own family.. My teens were miserable. My 20s were even worse. I have suffered depression for so long but no one in my family knows“, because it is not congruent with you having shared really deep secrets with your younger sister who has been alive during your teens and 20s.

My late sister and I made up. When I was pregnant with my son, she is the only one that finally sat down and listened to me. after that, she became the one that defended me when my family would gang up against me. the connection happened later in life and I truly appreciated her friendship. she too suffered from our family for a bit. but she was lucky because she was bright and great at school so she was treated well.

According to the above, shared in Sept 2021, you planned the pregnancy: getting the idea of getting pregnant, and finally falling pregnant. But a couple of months later, in Nov 7 & 11, you changed your story: “we never used protection..  he didn’t plan the pregnancy, neither did I.. I was not actively trying to get pregnant“. Perhaps the following sentence suggests the truth: “Yes, I am not innocent in the situation.. in creating the situation and dealt with it“, Nov 11)

I have been posting my random thoughts. But i got pregnant in January this year. So yes we broke up in April. I miscarried at the end of March.

Christopher broke up with you in early February 2021 (“It’s been eight months since we broke up.. when he was breaking up with me“, posted Oct 1, 2021), which according to the timeline above,  would be after your pregnancy and before your miscarriage. Or the breakup happened in April 2021, more than a month after your miscarriage (“It’s been over 6 months since Christopher and I broke up”, posted Oct 19, 2021). Before and following the breakup, you felt “so hateful.. lifeless and angry… spiraling out of control.. angry and highly resentful“, missing him still while in a new, long-distance boyfriend, a relationship that ended by this time.

I may have my timeline mixed up. That’s true. Are you in any way suggesting am lying about my experiences? Why on earth would I go through so much trouble? I feel like you are suggesting I am seeking attention.

I have posted deep and personal things here. You have no idea how nerve-wracking it’s been for me to even put any of this online.

Yes, sometimes I zone out to cope. And in the process, my timeline might get mixed up. But that doesn’t mean am making anything up. I have not suggested in any way that I am not ashamed of whatever went down. I am doing the best I can with what am dealing with.

Anyway thanks for listening

Stay well.

Elizabeth.