Dear MalaKai:

You clearly feel “so hurt, angry and broken… still in shock and finding it hard to process… scared of how extremely vulnerable I am…  always tired, physically and mentally… I just feel like I am not even heard. I’m starting to really shut down cause it’s like I can no longer manage“-

– You are welcome here, on your thread, to make yourself heard, to express your feelings as they are, without having to make sense of them all.

It reads like your former girlfriend is also having a difficult time managing life, that’s why she has not been back for any of her many personal belongings. The night of Christmas Day was as bad for her as it was for you, maybe more because she had to leave so quickly.

I hope you do receive the therapy that you need, but until then, please share more, express yourself, whatever words and emotions come to mind, type them away. I will read from you and respond whenever you post.

anita